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Monday, September 26th, 2005
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8:38 pm
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| Friday, August 12th, 2005
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11:31 am
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it's been a long time.
i've a new ending.
i want you to forget character bases, plot. who's who doesn't matter.
just read the writing.
take it for what it's worth.
you ready for this?
the music slows down. couples form around andy, and branden excuses himself to find kate, leaving andy all alone. she gets up after a while and takes a few steps in the wrong direction. stops. patrick and his ex, her head on his shoulder, holding each other tight. andy bites her finger. turns away from the sickening sight. turns right around. kate on eric action. bite your tongue. she walks to kate, takes her by the arm outside. the doors slam.
andy: what are you doing.
kate: something. something i've wanted to, for a long time now.
andy: what about branden. how could you possibly do that to him.
kate: oh he saw us before you did. i think he left.
andy: *astonished* kate.
kate: andy, it's eric. you're the only person who understands that. i can't help the way i feel.
andy: you might not be able to control your feelings for him, but no ones forcing you to go out with him.
kate: you don't get it. you just don't get it. it's not my fault...we're in love.
andy: bullshit. you're fifteen.
kate: love knows no bounds.
andy: yes it does katherine. did it ever occur to you that i might still have feelings for that asshole?
kate: *flustered* he loves me andy. not you. i'm sorry, but i can't help it. you'd do the same if you were me.
andy: you don't have to date him. i wouldn't, if it would hurt you, and everyone else we know.
kate: i am not a selfish person. just once, i'd like to do something for myself. to make me happy. just once.
andy: no matter how many people you break and trample over? just to feed your own satisfaction and to reach your own ultimate happiness?
kate: yes. i need this andy.
andy: kate. would you cry if i died?
kate: of course, but i don't see what this has -
andy: kate. if we all did what we wanted for our own happiness, regardless of anyone else. *loses her place* - you just can't.
kate: i can and i will. i don't care anymore. i want this more than anything in the world.
andy: kate, i want to die more than anything. but i'm not dead. clearly i'm not dead. why am i not dead? because i care katherine. i care about everyone else. i care about you and what it would do to one of my best friends. i care about what it would do to branden, to matt. to my sisters. my grandparents. i care kate. but it's my fondest dream, my fondest wish. to explore the realms of death, the afterlife. heaven and hell. purgatory. to leave behind this horrid body and move on. to get away from eric and my parents and broken hearts and broken promises. the truth is bitter and unrelenting. and it hurts much more than lies ever would. so i'm not going to lie to you. you need to hurt now kate. imagine how branden feels, how amber feels. what matt and conor are going to do. how i feel. you can do things to make you happy, but this is far too bittersweet, don't you see? i want to turn my feet down the last unavoidable path, make the unbreaking oath. i'm not scared. i embrace death and dark. i might be good at dying, at least. kate, i want to feel my life's blood, my life my memories dripping down my hand and staining the carpet. i want a goodbye hug and kiss. i want to explore and fly. i want it more than anything kate. but i'm still here. that's what matters to you, to everyone. to my friends kate. i'm staying for my friends. i owe it to them.
i'll forsake my dream for love. why won't you.
kate: andy. you know what, i'm doing this, i need to. i don't care anymore. if that's what you want, do it. go kill yourself andrea. go on, do it. i love eric, and i can't help it.
andy: fine, i will. i can't say it's been fun, or that i'll miss you. have a great life katherine.
*kate turns inside and slams the door.*
andy is frantic. in her room, pacing. back and forth, round and round. breathe in breathe out. hands running over tear streaked cheeks, pulling out her hair.
she'll stop soon. breathe deep and slow down.
andy: i'm so sorry sam. there might be good left in the world, but the stories aren't known hardly anymore. and i'm not strong nor good enough to fight. i'm sorry.
she rips off the one ring. places it reverently beside a scrap of paper reading namaarie in elvish, and on the reverse: believe in magic, read the books.
kate's sitting with eric. tears in her eyes, holding hands for comfort, under a tree in the playground.
patrick: hey kate, do you know where andy is?
kate: *quietly* i, i told her to go kill herself.
patrick: what? what. kate, where'd she go?
kate: i don't know, i went back inside. like an hour ago.
eric: she'll be fine. she's young and desperate for attention.
patrick: you ass, you've no idea. *runs off. sees branden further off, upset.* he uhh branden is it?
branden: yeah?
patrick: i think andy is going to try and kill herself.
branden: what?
patrick: it's a long story, i think we should call the police.
vroom go the police cars, pulling up in front of andy's house, scaring the neighbours. cut to tearing inside, with patrick and branden in close pursuit.
policeman: andy. andy are you in there? you have everything to live for, trust me. *as there's no answer* we're going to break down the door, okay?
he tries the handle, and it's unlocked. the door opens, cut to black.
sobs.
andy!
and here we come, to the end of the story.
i hope you enjoyed the ending. and the beginning, and what i'm going to change, and what i'm going to add.
i'm glad you're here with me samwise gamgee, here at the end of all things.
current mood: unsleep.
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| Sunday, July 24th, 2005
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11:07 am
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Well it's been a while.
About Life is on an indefinite hiatus.
I knew this was going to happen.
I constantly start or plan things that never follow through.
I really want to see this through; it's my fondest dream to see it on the big screen and to share some real life with the world.
I just can't bring myself to write about someone who I'm still fucking in love with. I can't believe it, and I bet you can't either.
please, someone, when I start school at NPC, someone please make me start this up again, no matter what the pain.
lkdsnfgioasdn I am just so fucking typically teenagerish I cannot stand it.
I have no desire to return to my dark morbid depressing ways, and I'd like to stick with my terribly confused alone time right now.
About Life shall be continued at the beginning of the school year.
current mood: terrible.
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| Sunday, June 12th, 2005
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10:54 pm
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| Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
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10:00 am
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sixty six. says:
your running mouth, strung by the vein, whispering your heart beat, and love letters much more easily written down. i can hardly stand goodbye's, but passing the time, your goodbye kiss means so much more. you offer these cataract perfect minutes, as i wait on a kiss, three words lost in a perfect world of lust. passion overwhelmes my threaded heart. even a deep breath won't let me catch my breath
Oh man.
current mood:  crushing.
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| Thursday, March 31st, 2005
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8:18 pm - lfnjsakf;a jub jub!
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| Friday, March 25th, 2005
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11:44 pm
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Roadblock!
Okay, I'm stuck. I don't know what I should do.
Okay, so Andy's based on me, right? Well, I'm not sure, but I think that some of you know a bit about my home life, like stuff with my parents and all.
Now, I know none of you know then entirety of it, only Jesse does. Fuck. Anyways, I don't know whether or not to let all that shit out in the open and have it a part of About Life, or not.
Help me?
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| Friday, March 18th, 2005
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12:10 am - quiz frenzy
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You Are
Fool In The Rain
You are a very bizarre person, to say the least. You don't think the way most other people do. And you probably don't really care.
You defy convention, and probably really like burritos. And you're very content with your life. You're a ray of sunshine. Piercing, bizarre end-of-the-world sunshine, but sunshine nonetheless. While most people are going to college to be lawyers or accountants or something, you'd be just as happy working at Tippy's Taco Stand in San Dimas, CA.
You probably have a really interesting car. You definitely do not drive a Honda Civic. There's a good chance that you smoke weed. There's a good chance you sell it.
Everybody worth anything likes you a lot.
Take the Which Led Zeppelin Song Are You? Quiz
Hmm.
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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~*~*~*~*~UNIQUE~*~*~*~*~
You are different. You're the type of person that
is easily spotted in a crowd. You have a
radiant personality. You probably go through a
lot of mood swings from happy to lonely, angry
to sad, loving to spiteful, and so on. Be aware
that your sudden change in personality may
offend some people. People like to be around
you because you are genuine and relaxed. You
seem at peace with yourself and you give off
that "what you see is what you get"
vibe. That's a good thing because your general
audience will feel relaxed and at ease knowing
that they too can be themselves with out having
to worry. Try not to judge others on their
appearance. It's not nice. Over all you're a
spirited person who enjoys having a good time!
Good for you! :o)
Please Rate or message me! Thank you for taking my
quiz! XoXo <3 Lana
You're Beautiful...but why? ( PICS)
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Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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| Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
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9:16 pm
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Dont' you just hate it when things happen that someway, somehow, deep in your heart you knew they would?
I don't think I'll ever love again.
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| Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
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10:49 pm
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If I have time tomorrow morning, I'll update about the football scene.
It'll be after a show.
"Let me show you the stars"
If that's not cute, I don't know what is.
PS, and also, someone remind me to tell Dan how I feel.
<3
current mood: enthralled
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| Monday, March 14th, 2005
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6:22 am
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Okay, so new characters.
Maybe someone modelled after Erin?
And one of Dan.
They could be a couple, I think.
I'll just have to move stuff around with each of their actual counterparts and add some stuff in, but I think characters like them are imperative to the script.
What say you?
current mood:  scared
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| Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
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10:21 pm
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w00t! First entry, but I'm going to bed.
Shall post about opening scene in depth tomorrow.
current mood:  excited
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